taytayan nga wala'y sumpay

I just love this picture taken during one of our out-of-town misadventures about a year ago..The place seems so..what would be the right word for it?..hmmm..melancholy..sad..kind of nostalgic even..

The structure seems so frail- made of bamboo and tied together with rope..It juts out into the lake and stops right in the middle, the bridge not reaching the other end..

The lake..it represents life in general..we could get lost in the vastness of it..the water, its current always, always unpredictable..it could either tug us to where we want to go, or drag us into a difficult place..one moment the water is calm, and we could swim in it as we please, or it could be the opposite, and you have to get away and wait for it to calm down before you wade back..

The bridge..it represents our life individually..of how frail it is, that at any moment it might break down and be lost amidst the current..made of two equally fragile things- the bamboo and rope..

The bamboo, our feelings, emotions..dreams, passion..memories

The rope..our sanity that binds everything and dictates what is morally sound and what is considered taboo by society..

I consider myself the bridge..though I have already lived in this earth for about a quarter of a century already (not that old still), I feel that I havent really done something concrete..something impossible..something magical..something very, very, very extraordinary..something superbly crazy..and like the bridge, it still needs to be worked on and constructed and finished so it would reach the other end..full circle as they would say..

Until that day comes, I'll carry on and add bamboo, and tie it with sturdy ropes..As long as the bridge is still unfinished, I would have to continue with life and be brave enough to do crazy, impossible, wonderful, extraordinary, magical memories..

dreamer's manifesto

I, MICHELLE MARIE DIZON, choose to live a life of adventure, excitement, service, joy, spontaneity and love.

I choose to love. And as I love I live, as I live I give, as I give I serve, as I serve I step closer to the reality of my dreams.

I will dream. I will dream of big and amazing and spectacular and awesome dreams. I will live my dreams and not compromise for the sake of security or safety or comfort. I will jump out of my comfort-zone and embrace change.

Change, whom I fear. Change, whom I dread. I will seek to live beyond what I can, believing that the God whom I trust is much, much bigger and greater than any obstacle I may face. I will face my fear. I will stop running away from it and turn around. And when I'm face-to-face and eye-to-eye to it, I will grab the bull by its balls and make it scream surrender.

I surrender. I surrender to my great Destiny. Knowing deep in my heart I am destined for excellence. I am destined for greatness. NOT mediocrity, NOT conformity, NOT in arrogance but with the mantle of humility placed upon me. Because this is not about me. This is about humanity. I will persevere for the sake of humanity, who need men and women inflamed by passion that will ignite the hearts of the timid and fearful souls to push on and soar higher.

And I will do all this not in ten years from now when I'm free.

Not five years from now when I have money.

Not one year from now when I am ready.

Not one week from now when I know how.

Not even tomorrow for tomorrow is far from now.

I will live my dreams and act NOW!

- the dreamers manifesto

chocolate cake

chocolate cake..sounds good, looks good, feels good after eating, tastes good..

I wish life could be like that..we could all have our own piece of cake and eat it too..but of course, it is not meant to be that way..we have to scrimp, and save, and fight our way just to have one sinful bit of that delicious chocolate cake..

They say life is not a bed of roses..and I definitely agree..I've had more than enough my share of thorns to last me a lifetime..and yet, at night when insomnia kicks in, i find myself thinking, that even with life's struggles, I never thought of giving up and just ending it all..

and now, when i looked at all of the pictures saved in my computer and saw this slice of cake..I think I began to understand a little..

A bite of that sinfully delicious baked goodie that is called chocolate cake..